Thursday, January 30, 2014
It seems that to make it in the art world now you have to have a good mind for business. Before if you were a good artist someone found you and sold your art, but now you have to make more of a name for yourself. You have to be able to find the balance between not selling out while selling yourself. Staying true to yourself and your work while trying to make money seems like it can be hard.
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
One of the flaws in my lifetime has been that I haven't been afraid of much. Sure I am afraid of heights and spiders, but I mean the really important stuff. I've fucked up my grades because I wasn't afraid of failure, I've disappointed a lot of people because I wasn't afraid of letting them down, and I've lost 3 jobs because I wasn't afraid of the consequences of not showing up. I've always had a sort of obsession with living in the moment and not worrying about what happens tomorrow. As bad as all of that stuff is, and as much as I know I need to start being afraid of some things. There have been a lot of good things that have come from living life the way I do. Including my ability to make art. I wouldn't say that I am the most technically sound artist, I can't draw from observation for my life, and I can't draw a perfectly straight line. I would argue though that art is just as much about if not more about the idea as it is the technical skills. I've never been afraid of offending people, or taking stuff from other places and changing it to make it my own. I'm usually not afraid that my work isn't good enough because I would rather people look at my art and feel something deeper, rather than look at it and say "he's a good drawer". So I guess I want to be afraid in some parts of my life but I hope that I never become afraid of my own art.
Thursday, January 23, 2014
I've always wondered about the idea of bringing street art into a gallery. There is something about the clash between a world of vandalism and law breaking and the pristine white walls of an art gallery that is exciting to me. I am not sure if I want my work to be in a gallery just yet I'm not sure if it's good enough yet. I think it is a privilege to have your work in the gallery and I don't think I am ready for that privilege yet.
Sunday, January 12, 2014
I'm turning 18 in less than a week and it's scary to me. I will be a legal adult in society. Most people I know can't wait to have that label, but not me. As much as I want to leave the nest and get out and see the world and go on adventures, I want to do it as a kid. Maybe some of it is because I am afraid of taking responsibility for my actions when I screw up, I've definitely been guilty of that. But I believe there is something far more scary. I feel that turning 18 is the first step to conforming to the rest of society and living a life that everyone else says your supposed to, a boring life, a scheduled life, a restricted life. As a kid you see the world through a different lens there are endless possibilities to what you can do. There are a few things I think kids have that most "normal" adults do not, the most important being creativity. I don't want to see a world through a black and white lens. I want to see it through one full of color. I want to do the things other people are afraid to, I want to question the norm. I want to live a life that when I am on my death bed I can look back and have few regrets if any. While there is no way to stop my birthday on Saturday, I am going to everything in my power to not be one more person in the world who does the same thing every day for the rest of their lives. That starts with maintaining whatever creativity I have left, so I will make art. I vow to make art for the rest of my life, now that doesn't necessarily mean I will become an artist, but for the rest of my life in one way or another I will make art. I don't have the drive a lot of my friends have to become rich and successful. I guess the drive I have is to leave my mark on this world somehow, I would like to leave it a better place then it was when I got here. There are a couple of things I am good at, art and lacrosse. Honestly I don't see myself changing the world on the lacrosse field. I want to make something out of my art, I want to make something that will challenge people to think differently about the world they live in when they look at it. When I say make something I don't necessarily mean one single piece of art. It could be many pieces or no pieces it could just be an idea. I don't know what it will be yet, but it will be something and it will be good.